I was in a bad spot when I first began to blog and express myself through writing. It was all I could do to get through my days so, I would write about the things that were hurting me. I heard the song by One Republic entitled 'Marching On' and it really resonated with me ... especially the part about 'putting one foot in front of the other.' There were days when that was all I could do.
In the aftermath of pain, people go about rebuilding their lives ... they frequently try to 'get their lives back.' But, all along, the only constant is change. It wasn't the same life, I wasn't the same person. I ran across this quote by Heraclitus in some of my readings:
No man steps into the same river twice. It is not the same river and he is not the same man.
This is a very simple yet profound metaphor. We cannot go through life-changing events and stay the same ... nor were we meant to. Maybe we are awakened to wanting more, maybe we decide what will truly make a more meaningful life and, most importantly, we grow. We are changed. I was changed ... I was not the same woman, it was not the same life.
The one constant thing about change though ... it is going to happen whether you are ready or not. A profound event calls for a profound reaction. You either let it run over you or ... as the song goes ... continue putting one foot in front of the other. So, maybe this blog has come full circle. From pain, to the mundane events of life, back to pain ... or maybe not pain so much as growth and change. The take away for me is that you can never get too comfortable planning your perfect life because it all can change in a heartbeat. This is not necessarily a pessimistic view for the simple fact that life can present you with pain and then turn around and give you unexpected joy. Its not personal, its just life.