Monday, September 27, 2010
Well, its that time of year again in Oregon ... you know ... when it is fall one day and decidedly summer the next. I'm leaning toward liking the summery days at present. I know that all too soon it will be chilly, gray and either rainy or foggy and decidely overcast and, I'm not ready yet. Summer was way too short this year and flew by way too quickly. Don't get me wrong, I do like fall with all of the beautiful colors, the briskness in the air and holidays having to do with pumpkins. But, this year is going by so quickly and it is a year that is the end of an era. At this time next year both of my babies will be married ... Amanda in January and Blair in July. I'm happy for them and very happy with the two wonderful people that they have chosen to spend their lives with but, the mom in me realizes that although I already let them go ... on those wedding days I will be really letting go. And, I'm not sure I'm ready. I'm thrilled and excited yet nostalgic and wistful. I remember those little babies from day one and all through the happy and occasionally unhappy moments of childhood. It went too fast. I bet there is not a mother alive who would not want one more day with her babies. So, its a mixed bag ... these changing seasons of our lives. I'd like to stop time ... just for a minute but, then again, we are going to have some fun in 2011 and eventually I think I might even get some babies to hold again. I love you both kids and no mother could have been any more blessed with a dream come true as I have with you two.