I ran across a humorous quote on Facebook today. It said, "If my life were on GPS, I would constantly hear RECALCULATING." I literally LOL'd. Humor is never more funny than when it is true. And lately, this is definitely true in my life.
I have bounced around more, both emotionally and physically, in the past five or six years than I did in the previous 25. Some of that was by choice and quite a bit was not. I am a firm believer in 'looking for the lesson' in the things that happen to me. I make conscious decisions to find the take away from negative experiences. If not, then I feel I'm destined to keep repeating that type of thing until I 'get it.' And yet, I'm more a creature of habit than I am an adventurer. So, why does life keep tossing me these challenges? What is the lesson or lessons?
I believed for a huge part of my life that one should choose a path, work hard and go responsibly down that path. And then .... life skidded off the path ... RECALCULATING. I had to make peace with the realization that what I had thought and believed might not actually be the path I was intended to walk. I made changes. I made a new plan. I got stuck in a rut. RECALCULATING. So what now? Do I turn off that inner GPS and explore new paths? I'm inclined to think that my plan is to have no definitive plan, which is not to say that I won't have goals. But, if my short term plans and long term goals don't feel right anymore ... well then, I'm okay with RECALCULATING. Maybe that was the lesson.